I’ve opened yarn orders for the first time in 2-3 years.

Like, for real.

Yeah, and I’m about to start dyeing yarn again.

I revamped my yarn logo for the occasion too!

*pinches self*

Oh yes, I’m awake. It’s really happening. After yearning for it and hoping for it, I’m about to start doing it again. It’s something I love, and I’m thrilled.

But I’m also terrified. I did it successfully once — heck, I supported my family with my yarn business after my dad passed — so why in the world am I so scared this time??

I’ve always been scared of failing at things.. I guess that’s part of it. I’ve been out of the yarn industry as an indie artist for so long that I’ve wondered if I’m still relevant. But I’ve had so many people cheering me on, telling me that this world needs the braided skeins in my colorways! I shouldn’t doubt them!

I do deal with anxiety a lot, which I freely admit, so perhaps that’s partly to blame for the terror I’ve felt at the thought of maybe falling flat on my face. Even though I don’t think I will — and neither do the people cheering me on. They’re sure I will discover my niche again and fill a gap in the yarn market somehow.

Yet a shadow of fear persists. So I’m flying scared. And I wanted to be open and transparent about it because if my sharing this can help someone else realize a dream they’ve had even though they’re terrified too, then it’s worth it. Or even if you’re just scared about something in life in general, I wanna encourage you not to give up. Keep going, and it’ll get better.

My journey has been so full of things I’ve had to overcome, and I’ve seen how strong I can be when I put my mind to it.. I just can’t stop. I have to keep going, keep moving, keep flying. So do you. Don’t stop. It’ll be worth it.

This world needs your unique point of view, your creativity, your heart, your love. It’s a dark place, and we need your light, no matter what color it shines. :)

I would like to share more about my journey with anxiety and depression here on the blog and perhaps on my podcast (if I can get up enough courage to actually talk about it on camera) so if you would like me to, please let me know. It’s scary to put myself out there like this, but like I said, I’m willing to if it means helping someone else.

Happy Knitting! <3